"Modern life is a journey by car. The Passengers
change terribly in their reeking seats, or roam
from car to car, subject to unceasing transformation.
Inevitable progress is made toward the beginning
(there is no difference in terminals), as we
slice through cities, whose ripped backsides present
a moving picture of windows, signs, streets,
buildings. Sometimes other vessels, closed
worlds, vacuums, travel along beside to move
ahead or fall utterly behind."
-Jim Morrison
Haw jee!! Haath haatao naa..yeh paap haai!!
Bhai nangu ghooma aane waale kai din..dragon jo dikhana tha...
Beer Baba!!
uu hain hamare hi-tech management coll ke hi-fi guard...shyam lal,chintu parsad aur ram khilawan...loaded with fully automated arms n ammunition!! par bole to darne ka nahi...insanon se bahut pyar hai inhe...yeh khaali guys(cow waali guys)ko rokte hain..aap bole to bindaas aao..naam bhi nahi poochenge...
uffffff...yeh ada maar hi daaloge....jpg)
Thakur sahab n gang..bhagwan tum sabka bhala kare..tumne ik gareeb ko panaah dee...stayed with these people during my summer trainin..
In ajeeb se dikhne waale sanki bacchon ke haath mein hai aapki zindagi..AIIMS compound ..n these guys r 4m India's 5th ranked King George Medical College...except 1.. gud for nuthin future manager(darr ke maare aankhein hi band ho gayi hain hamari 
bhai ka sir khul gaya tha...gt 40 stitches...par always ready for fotuuu..kyunki kuch lamhe hamesha yaad reh jaate hain(2 ladkiyon ke kandhe mein hospital pahunche they)...say cheese!!
yeh hain us byk ke driver!!agle din singapur kat liye..2(keyword) of his legs were not workin properly...
if this z ugly...
to yeh kya hai??? uu hai PAAPI GUDIA ...Ramsey's forthcoming com-horrror...
ghayal jawaani meri sukhi sukhi jaaye re...
keep a check on de angle 4m next tym!! zamaana kharab hai
ab har fotuu pe comedy karoon kya?? dil to hamara bhi saaf hai...bhagwan ne aankhein hi aisi dee hain...koi kuch samjhta hi nahi!!
Ik haseena thee..
ik deewana tha...
hamar bachpan..
hamri jawaani..gaon ki saari zameen girwi rakhke ihaan mumbai aaye hain padhne khaatir...maan ne gehne beche to kapde aaye ...dost logo se kitaabein maangke raat ko bas imtihaan se ik din pehle street light mein padhte hain...your's truly...
hamar budhapa..
I wont say I don’t have anything to write but don’t have much to share.. you must be thinking as if it fuckin matters to you what shit I write here. Actually it doesn’t matter but one plays central character in his own story so even yours truly holds his birth right to feel as important as Mithun Da or Rajnikant in his story. Uprokt pankityon mein anapuyukt upma alankar ke prayaog ke liye ham tahe dil se samast mithun da aivam raknikant jee ke prashansakon se kshama ke prarthi hain… was just trying to put the simple fact effectively n that requires to quote a suitable example.
Shawshank redemption is just two n a half months away.. but I am no more counting days to break de prison n fly high .. actually m living very comfortably in this cell. I don’t think any prison can be as luxurious as ours.. separate cell for every prisoner with attached bathroom. Two lakes on both sides of de great prison.. one in-house pond.. greenery all around …de only problem is one n a half years period of punishment z bout to end.. sometimes I think instead of committing crime of getting into MBA college I should have done something worth in this precious time of my life.
But there is one thing I like bout this period ...’av got a lot of time here to do whatever I feel like doin...n most of them are things which I am sure I wont be able to do once I’ll leave this place…reading novels.. watchin 3 movies in a day.. basketball.. football.. drinking every single day(exception 15 aug n a local dry day in last module).. discussions(useless ones)..
Last two months were good because of many reasons..15 days trip to Lucknow ,Banglore ,Delhi ,Bareilly made me meet many of my old friends …I even met one of my first std classmate after 15 years.. trip to Lonavala was awesome too.. daaru waala part to bataya hi.. read some 10 novels …100+ movies… changed my hairstyle(though I look more stupid in short hairs)… but best part was I got rid of that evil to human kind…sometimes I think how beautiful were those old days when mobile wasn’t there.. parents,galfren,frens no one can track back if you don’t wish to.. ‘av regained my personal space n peace of mind..
Signing out!
Salaam Namaste!!
I shall be doing my project right now instead of writing down some bullshit which I am also not very clear about.. but as a great philosopher (thats yours truly) has said “Its not the act but the time of its commencement which gives you satisfaction or adventure or fun whichever u are longing to derive”. Opportunity cost of this writeup (sounds gud…can’t call my puke yukk myself..) is the chance of standing in de lecture tomorrow facing that stupid prof’s idiotic quests which I am giving up by not attending his class.. so its not a bad decision I guess.. n now it doesn’t matter coz he already have plans for me :D… have attended 2 out of his 12 lectures…n he didn’t took attendance in those 2 classes.. so effectively m having zero percent attendance in a college which claims itself among top 10 B-schools n demands 75% attendance to sit in the exam.
Anyways.. chuck it!! Today m going to introduce you with a character which I guess ‘ll keep coming in my posts in future… Though he didn’t have any probz in putting his name in de blog.. I asked him to suggest a nick which I can use in de posts for de sake of anonymity…within seconds he told his choice.. n I wasn’t able to refuse his humble request.. so lemme introduce u to Mr Hugga Tea(HT)..
Well.. not his fault.. its de present state of being.. In coming days, we have decided to spent our time on Quality things only .. n our first research topic is psychotic personalities.. but everything requires a sacrifice.. Author must feel the character he z writing n an actor must feel the character he z playin.. ’av you ever noticed while watching a movie or reading a novel knowingly or unknowingly you start trying to correlate the characters with the real ones around you…n if movie’s main lead isn’t Mithun or RajniKant n novel’s author isn’t Ved Prakash Sharma …generally you are the virtual hero/heroine in de plot n de other leading character is de one you are presently fallen for[not your gf/bf everytime ;)] all de Romeo-Juliets don take it personally!! 
Same is the case with HT.. if he should have asked me de nick of ma choice for his story.. it could be something like.. ‘khooni haiwan’ or ‘thirsty predator’ or may be ‘ganja guthli’ .. this heavy literature n psychotic movies are driving us crazy but at the same time I guess we are enjoying it.. 
Well.. I am not going to discuss our findings n my own feelings here.. there is another blog that I share with Mr HT n another fren of mine.. but that is more of a personal thingy n its written in very raw manner n without any censor so leave it… moreover as I said…people generally like stories which they can relate with themselves.. n its not that kinda story so most of you will not find it worth reading.. so lemme tell you de same topic in a bit sophisticated way(which I doubt :D)…
Leaving apart english movies as most of them have a strong plot (I wont say we Indians prefer imported stuffs..aaj hi chak de dekhi hai yaar..) lets talk bout Indian flicks .DDLJ is all time hit n Shabd(one of de best plot.. I ‘av ever seen in any Hindi movie) or Dil se(my fv8) are big time flops.. simple fact is most of us don’t like what we can’t relate with us or something which isn’t acceptable in our definition …here starts the territory of psychotic characters….
I am tryin to explain it in as simple way as I can.. But believe me its not so simple.. coz its not you…its not me(I guess… :D) . This whole stuff started with International Marketing lecture..
Prof: What do you think is the difference between animals and human being?
HT: Culture n society.
Me: Animals follow Instincts (not to him.. I like putting mute button on ma lips in class)
Few other guys shared their own views..
Prof (To HT): True..
I didn’t listened much of what he said later as I am not used to attending classes n if I do then too ma mind is somewhere else.. thinking bout some other place.. some other thing.. Few days back HT comes to me n a discussion started ..leaving the minute details lemme put de core of the discussion …
We are taught to behave in a socially acceptable manner. Definitions and culture may vary according to country, religion, cast etc. but in every culture there are certain defined or not defined rules or ways that most of us abide. Its not the same with animals. The difference between animals and human being is animals follow their instincts. Thats there method of survival which keeps them safe. When a child is born he don’t know he is beautiful or ugly, people tell him …your girl friend tells you how romantic you are …your teacher tells you are intelligent…n you make a perception of yourself…perception which isn’t yours actually…self image you can say…which you make with help of those around you..
You start actin accordingly…to make de image strong.. acceptance is de motive behind.. most of us don oppose something wrong even if we know its wrong coz people around us aren’t going to support de thought.. This kind of people are externally driven.. they need acceptance in every step of their life.. they derive confidence from support n acceptance ..majority of human beings falls under this category…
Then there are those who don’t need any acceptance.. they are the kinds who ‘ll oppose something if they think its wrong.. its not much a concern for them what others think about any issue.. these people are internally driven… there are few attention seekers too but don’t confuse them with de above kind ..they ‘ll oppose every thing…every damn thing to attract the attention…they don’t have depth in their thoughts..
There is one more type….they also don’t need any acceptance… rather they hate it.. its a fun for them to do things which are prohibited.. they are different from de attention seekers coz they don’t do anything to gain attention …they are different from internally driven people coz their deeds are not governed by de logic of right or wrong.. they are unpredictable.. you can’t guess what ‘ll be their next step.. Psychotic is de word.. They are not your friend.. they aren’t your enemy.. they are self obsessed ..they could be in love with themselves…or they may love hurting themselves.. 
either hate or love could be the driving factor.. they wont give a second thought to harm anyone.. extremities is what they love de most…They have very intense passion…it could be positive ..it could be negative.. but its always there for a sure.. they could be dangerous.. very dangerous indeed…
So next time you meet one of them…stay away!!
But I love such characters…I love psychotic literature.. I love psychotic movies…I heard... people like stories which they can relate with themselves ;)
I am a rock,I am an island...
A winter's day in a deep and dark December-
I am alone, gazing from my window to the streets below
on a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow,
I am a rock, I am an island.
I've built walls, a fortress deep and mighty that none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship, friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain,
I am a rock, I am an island.
Don't talk of love-
well, I've heard the word before, it's sleeping in my memory.
I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died,
if I never loved I never would have cried,
I am a rock, I am an island.
I have my books and my poetry to protect me.
I am shielded in my armor.
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb,
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock, I am an island.
And a rock feels no pain and an island never cries
Last two months were just awesome...spent really good tym wth few old frens n few new ones...though endings are not always perfect but..
"I was nvr one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole is as good as new. what is broken is broken- and i'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as i lived..."- Rhet Butler
20th april:
So here I am back again…can’t quote my bizzyness as de reason for not scribbling here in last few days.. schedule isn’t very busy but I am trying making it as much busy as possible. I don’t want to laze around doing nothing or watching movies… I am fucking bored with de routine schedule from last one year so when I came to Maruti Udyog Ltd for my summer training I was pretty excited…few of my really good coll time frens r here in Gurgaon n Delhi…new place…old frens…a job to do…everything sounds perfect!!
But why the hell...things don’t fall on the right places… starting with my summer project.. project is quiet important for Maruti .. didn’t knew it when I got to know about the project in ma college… but enthu of whole of supply chain division towards the project says so.. when rest of my frens are not getting the basic information they needed from their project guides.. our project guide accompany us to all the places we need to visit…deciding objective n strategic planning took 4 days.. n now when we are all set to go… we are not getting the fucking data we need .. reason behind-responsibility to provide data doesn’t fall under duty of any of the division …n scm people don’t have data we require… have u ever seen office-office … I didn’t knew even pvt firms have such a culture… our project guide n another guy took us to the IT deptt… their reply “we have stopped providing such confidential(lol)data without the permission of authorities.”
When we went back with permission letter …they told us it will take few days…they were not sure of count.. may be 5 …may be 20..meeting with Vice President of spares was more of a comedy session …that 50+ somethin man was not even ready to listen to our guide …meeting went for 2 n half hours without any result…I am damn sure he didn’t even had any hint by the end of discussion that what data is required so urgently… but it’t not his fault…I’av always believed in there are people who are always satisfied n happy with conditions n then there are those who are not…there is no third category ….he falls under second category… he received atleast 15 calls during that 2n half hrs period…n after listenin to de replies to all of those calls in his monotonous tone I was sure he’s not gonna help us out…
One more thing which I am not sure whether to pen down or not is about a sweet Chipkali! I saw her in our induction session on very first day in Maruti.. ours was a batch of 31 trainees 4m different colleges.. NITIE, FMS, MDI, IMT, SCMHRD, IIFT.. I was not interested in talking to anyone .. it’s not like I had friends from my college there that’s why…but last few years has changed me a lot…if this would be 2-3 years b4.. then I would be sorting out good lookin gals on priority basis …lol…still remember those days when we had a list n a plan of action ready for every situation…though it never worked out for me…I mean all de gals I had crush on.. they never came to know bout my feelings…I somewhere lack in taking initiatives in this field.. I just don’t like listening NO.. I tried changin myself a lot but all in vain… all such relations I have been through started by mistake…through common frens…with someone n somewhere I never expected…but now I am enjoyin ma freedom!!
Introduction started n my poor memory was able to retain only one name by de end of tht intro session ..obviously hers … believe me that was not intentional! induction session was of 2 days .I came to know there only…. after induction few have to stay in the plant n others have to go to different corporate offices.. n next moment I was checking out what she has to do… by my good luck she has to stay in plant only but our offices were in different buildings.. first day passed ...no conversation… when I came back next day I knew I just had 8 hours …plant visit was scheduled for first two hours of my mission… n that was the best opportunity to start a conversation… there I noticed her dashing walking style!! Lol.. she walks like a lil gundi!! Leaving the minute details of my observation during that period …just telling u …I wasn’t able to say a hi!.. but god knows how…when she was bout to enter in the class I heard a voice…. you 4m …. College?? I noticed it was my voice only…man!! that was moment of pride…after 2 days (actually after 22 years) finally I said hi to someone I really wished to… thnx heavens ! she replied back to my question… then few formal interview types questions…name college project n all…I knew the answers b4 .. I wished to ask r u single? But dropped the idea… our conversation lasted 2 minutes for a max n we were back to the induction room…I thought to sit next to her…but it could be embarrassing ….what if she change her seat?? What if she didn’t liked it?? N few more possible what ifs took me back to de back bench where I used to sit 4m de very first day of my skool life.
‘ll complete the story later.. m already dozin off…
3rd may:
well…just returned back from café coffee day..n its 3:30 am.. n I’av to be in my office by 8:45 am. Finally we got de data few days back n project is goin quiet fine. There’s a lot of work to be done tomorrow.. so again m not gonna complete de story…but telling u de latest development.. she has to complete rest of her project 4m Delhi corporate office…n I haven’t seen her since last one week ..we tlk once or twice a day thru ph.. as usual crush(sort of..) z over.. I got it after an hour of tlk…but she z sweet...
m really enjoyin this period n I hope it to not last soon… I don wanna go back to that MBA coll..
life here is just as I wished to it to be …frens, parties n all….’av joined a gym, now I drink liquor occasionally (once in a week or two), black coffee took beer’s place, though I still drag some 25 fags but this z de thing I would never wanna change, ‘av started reading again…n rite now m literally in love with Shantaram , ‘av finally put an end to few other stuffs which I don wanna discuss here…
When wish and fear are exactly the same
We call the dream a nightmare….- Gregory David Roberts(Shantaram)
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