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I wish tym cud run back...

Everythin seems so borin..monotonous..irritating..depressing..nt gettin more adjectives (n m nt at all in mood to use my brain 2 find few more) these r enuf 2 define my state of my mind ..its not tht nethin z wrong ..neither I sound so depressin on a regular basis(I can't write generally here coz i hv very subsequent mood swings) n if dere exists ne scale 2 measure it I cud bet my ass it will run short..

I miss my mom. I miss her advices (though I never listened to dem) bt I loved being preached lyk a 5th std kid. I love her scolding (she luks so sweet tht I wonder I supposedly made her angry 2 get tht luk on her face) I miss fighting wth my younger bro n sis. I still remem when they team up 2gether to fight wth me..They told me years later they used to make a whole plan of action (gosh how cud hv they read organizational behavior while they were 5 n 7)..I wish tym cud run back

I miss my room filled wth jadeza's posters. I had a deal wth my mom tht if I stood first in class then only she will subscribe to 5 sports magazines in a month..n wth Jadeza's blessings n my pious worship towards him I managed to do de impossible task. I never read nethin of it but articles on him n man… only I knw how tough it ws to cut his pic out of 14 team members of a loosing side who barely manage to get a snap of half a size of page (actually 1/4th) in magazine... bt when urs truly grew smart n matured in class 4th then he subscribed to cheaper cricket samrat which had snaps n articles on loosing bt ours only India’s very own team ...here i want to confess smthin to all of u...all de Indian team's fans....I want ur forgiveness for prayin defeat of Indian team in test matches...as may Jadeza get a breakthru in test matches. God...he ws awesum!!!..n still his talks can distract me n example z m loosing de grip of topic...bt can't help it m lyk tht only since my journey from 1.5 kg to 73 kg ....I miss being 39 kg... I wish tym cud run back...

I miss bunking classes for playing cricket....though I still bunk classes bt nw there zn't ne worthy reason behind de respectable act of brave warriors against studies. I miss my second love(though she never came 2 knew tht I loved her bt I wont call it crush coz I always compared luv wth worship n crush wth lust...gr8 me..tyt dialogue maara hai)yeah u muz be thinkin bout my first love...I don miss her coz bcoz(may b incorrect sentence bt I can sacrifice proper English for rhyming words...sounds nice...coz becoz!!) hey...u knw there r many types of rhyming words...e.g.
first type - coz becoz
sec type- guitar vuitar
third type-t v
fourth type-seeta geeta
sorry again for diverting 4m de topic...yeah I was tellin I don miss my first love coz she made me stand in front of every1 every time(sort of rhyming again)I was caught sleepin in class..it ws so embarrassing ...yeah she was my teacher...

I miss those days..when I used to love my second love.. I still remem when I was in class 7^th n she was in 6^th (I evn remem de tym n date bt wont write it coz m nt subodh kumar of dch)…hw cud she luk so sweeeeeeet..goshhh!! My first luv lasted six years….I miss talkin to her.. still remem everytlk we had…n guess wht m gonna share all wth u…don b afraid m nt writin few hundred of pages here for accountin my six yrs tlk …

Before telling de whole story I must tell u I believe in first impression z last impression…

Class 7^th- we haven’t exchanged a word coz I didn’t felt myself smart enuf to tlk 2 a princess..(after all first impression z last impression…)

Class 8^th-I worked hard n secured 1^st position in all sections ..bt does tht makes a diff…she was one year junior..may b she didn’t heard de miracle..So hw cud I make a move at wrong tym ( first impression z last impression after all…)still I wasn’t even able to say hi to tht angel..

Class 9^th-eneterd into clg politics …wrkd really hard in every sense(key word ) to becum basketball captain n dramatics coordinator…nw I ws sure she can correlate my face n name…bt I didn’t wanted any loop hole.. (Yeah u got it right .. first impression z last impression…)…so still no exchange of words..

Class 10^th- That was a normal routine day n I was playin basketball in lunch tym ….n I heard a sweet voice callin me…I can’t believe my eyes when I turned back..she asked me to coach her for playin basketball n only I know how I managed to cntrl already overflowing emotions of mine n replied in affirmative callin her nxt day…but after she left one of my fren told me tht she shudn’t have called me bhaiyya …I didn’t heard tht…I swear I didn’t....bt after 3 hours of long discussion I was convinced(forcibly) by my frens tht she abused me by tht gaali…n I decided not to talk to her again …I was broke…completely broke..didn’t went to skool for a week..listened to all de sad songs I could search…

She didn’t asked fr basketball again(I was happy... thinking… its better 2 b alone than havin such a careless galfren..hw cud she forget she needed trainin in basketball …careless fool!!)

Class 11^th- I thought to make her jealous by makin a hot galfren…[:D] …made a 1 month mission wth my best fren to trap de babe of our skool ..Miss u 2 baby……. Leavin de details just telling u de results…we were successful… bt tht didn’t made de slightest diff in her behavior.. but my first responsibility(I already defined love as worship …crush as lust …n there z a third kind… responsibility ..u can’t define it wth one word it needs three…PAIN IN ASS…)was really irritating….we broke up in 2 months…then I had one more relation (type of relation: responsibility) but my second love didn’t lasted…then I made a decision(it takes tym man!!m a libran ) tht I have to fight back(don knw wth whom…may b wth Mr. destiny ) 2 win her back(lyk she was mine…)

Class 12^th- At de same tym I had made frenship wth her sister …she was in same class as mine but in diff section..as our frenship grew older I came 2 know she already had a boyfren smwhere outside….again I searched fr same sad songs n guess wat it was easier this tym to search them coz I dubbed them all in two cassettes …n searchin 2 cassettes is far easier than searchin 20 songs…Urs truly ws smart at tht tym 2…n I didn’t went to skool for 2 weeks this tym…pain was greater ..after all my love was 5 yrs 5 months old..months passed n came de last days of skool …n guess wht…. obviously we nvr tlkd again(its my story after all)

Let me add …we never tlked bt tht ws till few months back…I got her fren request in orkut... we tlk …bt its diff nw …time change.. circumstances change…people change…n so do feelings …n urs truly zn’t ne exception.. I wish tym cud run back….