Psychotic!!

I shall be doing my project right now instead of writing down some bullshit which I am also not very clear about.. but as a great philosopher (thats yours truly) has said “Its not the act but the time of its commencement which gives you satisfaction or adventure or fun whichever u are longing to derive”. Opportunity cost of this writeup (sounds gud…can’t call my puke yukk myself..) is the chance of standing in de lecture tomorrow facing that stupid prof’s idiotic quests which I am giving up by not attending his class.. so its not a bad decision I guess.. n now it doesn’t matter coz he already have plans for me :D… have attended 2 out of his 12 lectures…n he didn’t took attendance in those 2 classes.. so effectively m having zero percent attendance in a college which claims itself among top 10 B-schools n demands 75% attendance to sit in the exam.

Anyways.. chuck it!! Today m going to introduce you with a character which I guess ‘ll keep coming in my posts in future… Though he didn’t have any probz in putting his name in de blog.. I asked him to suggest a nick which I can use in de posts for de sake of anonymity…within seconds he told his choice.. n I wasn’t able to refuse his humble request.. so lemme introduce u to Mr Hugga Tea(HT)..

Well.. not his fault.. its de present state of being.. In coming days, we have decided to spent our time on Quality things only .. n our first research topic is psychotic personalities.. but everything requires a sacrifice.. Author must feel the character he z writing n an actor must feel the character he z playin.. ’av you ever noticed while watching a movie or reading a novel knowingly or unknowingly you start trying to correlate the characters with the real ones around you…n if movie’s main lead isn’t Mithun or RajniKant n novel’s author isn’t Ved Prakash Sharma …generally you are the virtual hero/heroine in de plot n de other leading character is de one you are presently fallen for[not your gf/bf everytime ;)] all de Romeo-Juliets don take it personally!!



Same is the case with HT.. if he should have asked me de nick of ma choice for his story.. it could be something like.. ‘khooni haiwan’ or ‘thirsty predator’ or may be ‘ganja guthli’ .. this heavy literature n psychotic movies are driving us crazy but at the same time I guess we are enjoying it..


Well.. I am not going to discuss our findings n my own feelings here.. there is another blog that I share with Mr HT n another fren of mine.. but that is more of a personal thingy n its written in very raw manner n without any censor so leave it… moreover as I said…people generally like stories which they can relate with themselves.. n its not that kinda story so most of you will not find it worth reading.. so lemme tell you de same topic in a bit sophisticated way(which I doubt :D)…

Leaving apart english movies as most of them have a strong plot (I wont say we Indians prefer imported stuffs..aaj hi chak de dekhi hai yaar..) lets talk bout Indian flicks .DDLJ is all time hit n Shabd(one of de best plot.. I ‘av ever seen in any Hindi movie) or Dil se(my fv8) are big time flops.. simple fact is most of us don’t like what we can’t relate with us or something which isn’t acceptable in our definition …here starts the territory of psychotic characters….



I am tryin to explain it in as simple way as I can.. But believe me its not so simple.. coz its not you…its not me(I guess… :D) . This whole stuff started with International Marketing lecture..

Prof: What do you think is the difference between animals and human being?
HT: Culture n society.
Me: Animals follow Instincts (not to him.. I like putting mute button on ma lips in class)
Few other guys shared their own views..
Prof (To HT): True..

I didn’t listened much of what he said later as I am not used to attending classes n if I do then too ma mind is somewhere else.. thinking bout some other place.. some other thing.. Few days back HT comes to me n a discussion started ..leaving the minute details lemme put de core of the discussion …

We are taught to behave in a socially acceptable manner. Definitions and culture may vary according to country, religion, cast etc. but in every culture there are certain defined or not defined rules or ways that most of us abide. Its not the same with animals. The difference between animals and human being is animals follow their instincts. Thats there method of survival which keeps them safe. When a child is born he don’t know he is beautiful or ugly, people tell him …your girl friend tells you how romantic you are …your teacher tells you are intelligent…n you make a perception of yourself…perception which isn’t yours actually…self image you can say…which you make with help of those around you..

You start actin accordingly…to make de image strong.. acceptance is de motive behind.. most of us don oppose something wrong even if we know its wrong coz people around us aren’t going to support de thought.. This kind of people are externally driven.. they need acceptance in every step of their life.. they derive confidence from support n acceptance ..majority of human beings falls under this category…

Then there are those who don’t need any acceptance.. they are the kinds who ‘ll oppose something if they think its wrong.. its not much a concern for them what others think about any issue.. these people are internally driven… there are few attention seekers too but don’t confuse them with de above kind ..they ‘ll oppose every thing…every damn thing to attract the attention…they don’t have depth in their thoughts..

There is one more type….they also don’t need any acceptance… rather they hate it.. its a fun for them to do things which are prohibited.. they are different from de attention seekers coz they don’t do anything to gain attention …they are different from internally driven people coz their deeds are not governed by de logic of right or wrong.. they are unpredictable.. you can’t guess what ‘ll be their next step.. Psychotic is de word.. They are not your friend.. they aren’t your enemy.. they are self obsessed ..they could be in love with themselves…or they may love hurting themselves..

either hate or love could be the driving factor.. they wont give a second thought to harm anyone.. extremities is what they love de most…They have very intense passion…it could be positive ..it could be negative.. but its always there for a sure.. they could be dangerous.. very dangerous indeed…


So next time you meet one of them…stay away!!
But I love such characters…I love psychotic literature.. I love psychotic movies…I heard... people like stories which they can relate with themselves ;)